When I decided to become an au pair, I knew that my whole lifestyle will change drastically. I knew that I am not going to be a teacher and manager anymore for the next year, yet I felt like a need a change, a break from everything I used to do in my home country. I remember all those conversations that I had with my family and friends. A huge majority of my relatives was opposed to my clever idea. “You are too old for things like that; you are not in high school anymore; you should look for good job and finish your Master’s degree, etc”. I heard a lot if things like that. Even one of my university professors was surprised when I told him about my plan. He looked at me concerned and he tried to convince me to stay in Poland and find a professional job and develop my carrier. I appreciate his advice but I knew that I am not going to listen to in anyways. I knew that it will be totally different kind of responsibility here. Indeed, it is very much different.
Only I know how hard it was for me to finally make that decision. I was changing my mind often. Eventually I felt that this is the best thing for me to do at that moment if my life. And you know what? It was the best decision! I am not saying that it is easy, because I have worse days, as everyone. I finally allow myself to have some worse days. Still, I am proud of myself that I made this decision. I am in United States for almost five months now and I can tell you that this experience helps me to understand myself. Finally, I have time to think about my carrier, my life and my plans. I have some many ideas of what I want to do when I will come back to Europe (or not exactly to Europe J ). I am even more ambitious than I used to be in Poland.
This gap year allows me to spend more time on the gym, in the cinema, reading books for pleasure, meeting new people, appreciate what I already have in my life. However, I am not only treating this year as a break. I promised myself that this is the time when I can spend more time on my professional development. I am trying to stay up-to-date with what I was learning in my university. Whatever I do, I always think how it is going to help me with my future carrier. I took gap year not only to travel and kind of rest from my past responsibilities. I took this gap year also because I wanted to have more time to truly understand myself and be sure what I want to do. Wasting time does not function in my vocabulary so I am planning, reading but also improving and exploring myself.
I am not making new year’s resolutions because I don’t believe in them. However, I do believe that hard work leads us to making our dreams come true. I had never been as brave as I am here. Moreover, I know that I have Jesus by me side so nothing is impossible for me. I wish you all to believe in yourself and start living the life you want. No excuses! Do not tell me it is impossible, because a year ago I looked at 22 year old Aleksandra in the mirror and I told her that what she wants is possible, and so she did it! Take care and believe in yourself. Your dreams are not only for dreaming, they are for you to make them come true!